The Fall

The Fall

It’s a strange thing that Carey died on Thanksgiving because reminders and anticipation of this holiday start popping up weeks in advance.  This has forced me to start facing a dreadful day that I would rather not face.  The colors, smells, and familiar fall surroundings have stirred up memories that were stored away, not purposefully, but in a protective fashion I would guess.  

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Life After Death

Life After Death

The forgetfulness has been a big thing that has caught me off guard.  My brain doesn’t work like it should, and it gets frustrating.  Like I forget to put shoes on.  And my poor phone gets forgotten all the time, everyday.  I wasn’t expecting simple things to become so overwhelming.  Maybe it’s from exhaustion, but it’s as if everything inside my head is at capacity – it can’t process anything else.  It’s buffering. 

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June Scans

June Scans

We went in for Carey’s scans yesterday.  Unfortunately, it was more difficult of a day than we were expecting.  Even though we are constantly trying to prepare ourselves, this kind of news still hits like a ton of bricks.  In short, Carey’s cancer is progressing aggressively and is now starting to affect some vital organs.

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